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date: dec 27, 2005

life has its own ups and down.. we all know that don't we..
but do we really understand it?.. if you ask me..
i actually don't.. i just don't understand why we feel
so down right after feeling so happy.. you know wat i mean..
pgtpos ng sobrang saya.. chaka k nmn iiyak.. kng gnon nlng dn..
yaw k n sumaya.. i miss the old days n wla ako problema..
msya s bhay, skul, lovelife.. potah ngaun wla ng msya..
yaw k n sna mgmura pro damn i hate being so alone..
im not saying is all i need a partner.. hindi un ang ibig kong sabihin..
i can stay single for the rest of my life and still be happy..
but i know that would only happen if im contented with myself..
NEWS FLASH: I'M NOT..
i don't know why but i feel that i still haven't found the real me..
i'm still on the stage where i put on several masks while figuring out
what face would blend with others better..
i know i have friends and i do treasure them but
i still can't say that what im showing them is the real me..
this is all because of what happened in the past..
it still haunts me up until now..and i hate it..
why can't i just step forward and go on with my
life as i used to do..i don't want to feel so ugly, worthless, and insecure..
this is not aybody's fault.. it's all mine..
i have accepted it now..
they've hurt me but it's me who kept all the pain inside..
they've left me but it's me who never let go.. i must move on..
but i just can't.. all im saying here is..
I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!


tamang-tama siya sa akin ngayon lalo pa't nakita ko silang dalawa kanina..oo.. sabi ko tapos na ang lahat sa amin pero iba talaga kapag nasa harapan mo na.. kitang-kita mo na masaya sila.. habang ako'y magpasahanggang ngayon..

Na-iisa..